A week or so ago I was talking with my friend and spiritual leader Shelli about direction in my life and the events that have transpired. Shelli, being a great friend to all who’s life she enters, has an abundance of good, wise counsel to witness and testify about God's greatness. She asked me shortly before I was on my way, or challenged me I would say, to think and pray about what I am going to when He does not answer my asking of the direction He has for our lives right now. “What if it is six months from now?”, she said. As I sat and pondered how that could feel like a lifetime, slightly biting my lip and shrugging my shoulders, I looked up from the spec on the carpet I had fixed my eyes on; "I guess I wait”, I said. She explained to me that is exactly where He wants me to be; sitting at His feet praising Him, acknowledging Him, and waiting for His direction, not our own. Wow... could I actually humble myself to that point? I have. And it is extremely difficult. So this morning we opened the long awaited email from Newlife Midwifery School. They do not review the application until January 2010! What? How on earth do we prepare ourselves, let alone all who we need to get support from if this was to happen? As a family we have to go over 2 months early to get settled to start the fall semester in August of 2010. That would give us six months to sell all of our stuff including our house and get together- how many thousands of dollars? Okay stop. That is six months from now- what I am going to when He does not answer my asking of the direction He has for our lives right now. “What if it is six months from now?” she said.
Yesterday, we celebrated our twelfth year of marriage wow time flies I love her now 12 fold more than I did then, and that was to time moon and back.
Today, I will pray for humbleness before the Lord and that He will provide all that we need for this journey. That He will put this on the hearts of His people to support His cause not ours.
Tommorrow, we will keep pushing on, moving forward.